I realize that I just want you to comfort me and it was stupid of me to write all that.
I didn't mean it.
I still don't want to see you.
This isn't some ploy to try to raise your concern about my seemingly distressed and uncertain emotional state to the point where you insist that we get together and then I can pretend like it was your idea and not mine so I don't feel responsible when it inevitably goes wrong...
At least I don't think it is.
But I got a new phone number and I don't have yours any more.
210-555-6954
-L